Ramblings of a tired mind: Poems By Annalise Grey Copyright 2011 Annalise Grey Smashwords Edition Discover other works by Annalise Grey at Smashwords.com Smashwords Edition, License Notes Thank you for downloading this free ebook. Although it is a free book, it remains the copyrighted property of the author and may not be copied, reproduced, or distributed for commercial or non-commercial purposes. Thank you for your support. 1. Soliloquy of the Lost Soul To go or not to go this dilemma weighs heavy. For whether it would be better to love, lose and remember than to never love and forever wonder, I am not yet sure. Shall I go with him giving my heart or languish alone, grieving for my soul's lost desire? He is my shelter, my peace. He gave me gift of laughter and a sense of myself. Without him I am lost. But would I not be more lost if I were to lose my heart to the trickeries of an uncaring Fate? Yet his eyes are kind and trusting. Making me believe true love endures. Through time and despair this one constant stands. Yet time persists in wearing away dreams and soon will my heart be gambled for and lost. My mind is to be my one true guide, unfailing, ever faithful. Still my heart screams the joys of bountiful love. Oh Heaven help me if ever you did care for this stricken soul! Oh Heaven help me if ever you did not! * 2. Wanna see destruction? Wanna see me fly? Take this heart from its empty cave twisting it tight. Make it yours and I'll become a shadow loving you until I shatter under the weight of your kindness. * 3. Slowly I forge in time a beating heart and make it shine. Silver tears I cry for my past and crime. I sever my soul to keep it mine. * 4. His ten tiny fingers grasp my one Earth's own hand grown Maiden no more - now Mother! I am teacher, singer of lullabies to soft eyes and holder of futures in two trembling arms * 5. Surrender to the Fire of Love's saving Grace and fill your heart with Desire and Love's immortal Face. * 6. I'd steal eternity for that dream in time when I'd melt into azure The weight of a thousand hearts forgives what breaks me from the soul I crave With memories of that desperate heat my ghost still lingers where he sleeps and these haunted moments of clarity are making me brave He knows he felt like home to me as he'd brush away my fears The screaming center of his need carried once the promise of peace, beautiful as the wings he gave me * 7. As he stands a breath away and takes me here tonight my raging storm inside grows silent and all the world is right * 8. My Hatred flies with Butterfly Wings This night of mine is long and cold and I am afraid Giving all I never had is wearing me away I have a hole inside my heart It slowly fills with rage as I see a lovely face its emptiness portrayed I feel the heat of my lies as I yearn for something more pleading voices in my head say “I just want to be pure” * 9. I do not belong here among grating brick walls and soulless streets My eyes reflect the stars shimmering in obsidian night and the scent of the forest is heavy on my skin * 10. I open my eyes but he is gone Vanished from this too large yet still warm bed Oh sing to me again with spontaneity leave baubles and perfumed shirts for me to squeeze into on long and foggy nights with comforting remembrance to last me through unused space and reoccurring dreams * 11. To have and to hold not possible I am tall and muscular raven-haired beauty to all but one He who brings me consecrated seeds and choking gold rings a kiss to keep me close until my own company I must keep for I am no longer needed not loved no body burned for so I sit pen in hand and scribble away about all that is left undone between us un-cried for and unsaid * 12. Yellow resounds in loving comfort for a moment when addictions cost you nothing but sleep and me all I have inside * 13. I have a song stuck in my throat my nightingale once sang it to me now I sing to her She called two nights ago again inquiring if I'm alright “Yeah of course. Never better.” She knows the truth so I sing to her Her comfort 'cause I'm so far away and she sounds so close across the wires then she cries and I wish my song were Silence * 14. You ask me why the jewels have fallen from my eyes A light for dark passages no more Once you spoke honest words to me Of why there is weakness in organized religion Yet strength in AA meetings You tell me my thoughts are my own so you won't pry I wonder why you even bother * About me: Pennsylvania native, dreamer, explorer. I write because I like talking to the voices in my head. They are (usually) good company. I love to travel (when I have the $ for it). My family is everything to me. Get updates and all the latest on my blog, http://annalisegrey.wordpress.com/ Or follow me on Facebook. Also available - Howl - a paranormal romance ebook. Check it out at Smashwords.com! . brush away my fears The screaming center of his need carried once the promise of peace, beautiful as the wings he gave me * 7. As he stands a breath away and. long and cold and I am afraid Giving all I never had is wearing me away I have a hole inside my heart It slowly fills with rage as I see a lovely face its